I don't have a job. You would think this would have a great impact on my waistline. After all, the famous saying is "we're going to have to tighten our belts." But it hasn't worked out like that.
Anxiety, addiction, and the temptation to give up has hit us. We've also just had bad luck in the form of car trouble-- battery, brakes and engine all died within a month. This adds to the anxiety and the desire to just quit. So we've eaten too much, and nothing good.
It's not like we're going to our favorite places and dining out, we're eating crap. McDonald's is getting our business 10 times a week. And that's super embarrassing every time I think about it, not just because it's trash, but because people have helped us out. We've been given groceries multiple times, cash, and even mystery boxes on our porch. And we're headed to the drive thru sometimes more than once every single day.
I've let my addiction convince me that I can't do keto because I'm poor, so instead I just eat constantly. I eat at dinner, again at 8, and again at 11:30. I hate it, and the guy who was 191 and working who wore nice clothes doesn't fit into any of those clothes at 216 pounds.
Today is day two back on keto. Yesterday I did the Heather method-- I just decided not to eat anything-- and found it incredibly easy. I ate keto at a hot dog roast, which meant just eating meat on a plate. Honestly, there wasn't anything there that I would have loved anyway, and my hot dogs tasted fine. The point of this paragraph is that although I felt like I had done some great thing and made a sacrifice by not eating, what I really gave up was store bought cookies, hot dog buns, and tortilla chips. Basically, I didn't miss out on anything at all.
I don't think I could have done much worse for my body outside of fake tanning and picking up smoking, so 25 pounds since December isn't the very worst. I can lose that weight-- I've done it before, more than once.
Here are the things I can do for zero dollars.
- Go to bed on time. I stay up late and eat late, then sleep in and have a groggy start to the day that spreads to the whole family. I think lights off at 11 PM is perfect.
- Go on walks. I don't like walks and I never have. They're boring and slow and I'd rather do almost anything, but our family needs to get out of the house. I think they'll really help.
- Read and write. This helps my brain to get used for something other than feeling sad about no income.
- Doing yard work and chores before being exhausted after a day of work.
Let's see how we do.
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