Things like reddit. Reddit honestly has some really cool aspects. Askreddit can be insightful or funny, and you feel like you're interacting with intelligent, witty and thoughtful people a lot of the time. The Skyrim sub can be fun, and it's people who just like the game. No complaining, no fighting, just people who like the game and want to talk about it. 

Politics, technology, movies... they suck. Everything sucks about everything, and everyone participating has come to remind you. This new phone sucks because it doesn't have a feature that I prefer. This movie is amazing because it's old, and all new movies are bad because I like old movies. Everyone who doesn't agree with my politics is destroying America. 

I spend too much time telling myself that I'm relaxing, but what I'm really doing is less than nothing. Doing nothing would give me some time with silence. Time to reflect. Time to just unwind and not exert any energy. But this is less. I still can't say I did anything.

But to take things back a notch, I like browsing the internet. There are funny things out there, and news to be aware of that is important. Politically, I think a sociopath is lying 24/7 while running the country without having a clue, and it's important that we don't just let apathy sink in and allow him to make rape mandatory if the president approves it. I think staying in touch with current events, and even just brainless humor is a good thing, even every day. 

I'm just doing less than nothing way too much. 

What would I like to do? I'd like to read books. Really good books that you're dying to get someone to read once you finish. I'd like to write fiction myself, and I have a few ideas that I think are really good, but I often get overwhelmed at the prospect of diving in to a long form piece of work. This little blog? I'll be done in a few minutes. I'll convey everything I wanted to-- or at lest try to-- and I don't have to have a story arch to make the ending a rewarding experience. 

I'd like to go outside everyday. We've had lots of good weather, but I frequently have the energy of a pile of sand by the time I get home from work each night. 

I'd like to have better workouts in the morning. I've been doing lifting, and I want to do some quick, high intensity cardio type stuff so I sweat at least once a day, but I have yet to do that one time this year. 

I'd like to enjoy video games. All too frequently, I'll play video games because I can. Not because I'm having fun with friends, and not because I'm dying to play a quest in Skyrim for 17th time. I just... fill the time. 

In a dream life, I'd work as a Product Manager for Bethesda and design the next Elder Scrolls game. You can think that sounds nerdy if anyone ever reads this, but to me, it would be a chance to do something creative, and to give something hopefully meaningful to millions of people in a way that I feel I'm fully capable of. 

I like watching basketball. I like to play basketball. I do either of those things a sad amount of times these days. 

Maybe I'm just in a rut today. I know I feel like it. But I'm hopeful that even just documenting these things will help me to choose to do things I like more frequently, and to waste less time doing things I know I don't really enjoy.